// How to move forward…//
Here’s to starting fresh from ground zero, literally..A now college graduate, currently unemployed, penniless, and trying not to go mentally insane while living between cities.
Let me give you a brief layout of life in 2014 (not in any particular order) : Mom getting sick. Sister’s wedding. money problems. Maid of Honor. Almost failing a class. Graduating. being sick from anxiety for 3 months straight. the worst birthday to date. A break up. almost getting and then not getting about five different jobs. Grandpa diagnosed with cancer. Aunt Joanie passing away suddenly. commuting 1.5 hrs to my horse. best friend struggles.
Needless to say, 2014 has been one rough year and I’m over it!
How do you get past it? I mean really. HOW on earth do you move past a never ending cycle of bad events??
I just want to go to a beautiful place where I can spread my wings and fly freely.
I miss the simplicity and beauty of traveling. Living out of a backpack for weeks at a time, moving from country to country, experiencing culture and people, language and art. Visiting a new city is like meeting a new love. You learn the dark and beautiful places, the smells, and how it functions, the norms of the culture, and the things is disdains. If you live there long enough you wake up one morning and find yourself falling into the patterns and cliches of life in that place.
freedom. that is what freedom feels like.
I guess you could say I have this knot in my stomach that I am trapped and held down right now. I just lost a job I was recently hired for because I had to stay at home for two weeks to be my mom’s chauffeur and my sister’s mover —the perks of having a truck—.
I know life has it’s highs and lows. Even with job hunting I’m learning to ride the waves of potential job offers and the ever disappointing “needs more experience”. —As a side note, might I add: how are you supposed to gain experience if no one is willing to hire you in the first place!— So I’m on a low wave and I just need to ride it out. God has a plan. He comes through every time, I just need to trust and wait. trust and wait.